Unspoilt

I knew about Dumbledore being gay before I knew he was going to be killed.

You see, I had the sixth book lying on my shelf for the longest time but didn't lift a finger to it until last week. Mainly because i was a little disappointed after book 2 and felt that Rowling was trying to let new readers catch up and was re-capping about year 1 & 2 of Harry's life at Hogwarts too much. This is a bore to those who have read immensely on the earlier releases before the rest of the world caught up. My interest took a dip so much so that I have not bought the last- Deathly Hallows yet.

As I made a resolution to read all the unread books in my possessions before I buy anymore books, I had to read the half blood prince somehow.

First half of the book was okay but i couldn't quite peel myself off to bed as i moved toward the back. I kept saying "ok, one more chapter, just one more" but i kept tempting myself to the next leaf and the next. Alas, I finished the book last night and refused to look at the clock so that my body don't register the time. (in times like this, i would fool my body to think that it has enough sleep). so anyway, half the time i winced everytime i passage across Dumbledore's affection for Harry or any affection for that matter. Because i had the revelation by Rowling that he was gay.

I wished I didnt know, for I began to read between the lines. That is prejudice. That is No good.

Please dont get me wrong, i have gay friends, both male gays and female ones and i love some of them more than any other. they are no different. in fact, they are more. not less.

But it still didnt stop me from reading too much into the lines and i begin to wonder if Harry is borderly gay. *sigh* some information is better left unknown.

But I was glad that at least my eyes were brimming with tears after he died.

Well, his greatness and nobleness is still,, noble.

Gay or not gay, he was great. His greatness, fairness, love transcended above his sextual orientation and my heart went out to those whose lives he touched.

Well, it is just a book you say. ya, it is.

But it made me realise that i am not judgemental against gays in a bad way although i had naturally dwelled more into the character.

I often make a lot of self-reflection, if you could access my thoughts live, i think it would be mind boggling. I asked myself why i was uncomfortable with Dumbledore being gay, since I readily accept gay in general.

I realised that more often than not, some gay people are quick to tell me about the juicy romp and they are more than happy to tell me the details. that would make me rather uncomfortable but i do not want to stop them at their tracks in case they think i have an issue with them being gay. It is not that really. you see, even if a straight person tells me the details of their sexlife, i will be uncomfortable. so, the matter is not about being gay, it is just that gay friends of mine tend to tell me more. get it?